Random Scrap:
I am just now mostly scared. Of course I saw it coming but it was convenient just to push it off, fingers crossed and see if anything good happens. But things don't miracleously get better. And I am pretty much with my own. Whomever I talk to I can't really complain because it was my choice to come here and I do have to face the consequences. Ok, David does listen. There is still some time until I have to pay for the tuition and in the meantime I can turn to Tomek. But that was not the plan. I was supposed to live of savings, blah blah. And I'm going to push for it no matter what, I will keep going. In the meantime I choose to believe Barry that the money will come and then get impatient and dissapointed if they don't or worse keep my hopes up when occasionally some money shows up if they're not spent on something else. I am no longer the priority. Fang Choi basically resigned and need to look for a new job. I'm still sticking in because of the convenience and need for companion but I know I should break free.